Loneliness vs Aloneness
I realize that loneliness and aloneness are two different things.
I have been in the middle of lively parties surrounded by people and felt heart-wrenchingly lonely. I have also been by myself in nature with not another human soul in sight and felt immensely connected with all of life.
To me, loneliness has come to mean a loss of connection, and aloneness has come to mean a space for rejuvenation. Both are experiences of the spirit, and both are choices I can make.
In my aloneness I reflect on all the good things I have been blessed with. When I realize how the universe has conspired to create and keep me, how every morsel I consume and every experience I enjoy come with the contribution of a thousand hands, my loneliness becomes a victim story I tell myself.
As I grow older, I remind myself that my time, and what experiences I create with them are the only things that matter. If there are people who evoke stories of loneliness in me, I can avoid those people and situations that make me feel lonely. This is self-compassion. This is a choice I can make.
Until next week!
With gratitude :)